so you finally let in and allow me to come visit you. Stress 死你。
I cant comprehend it, but, sorry for piling it up for you.


刚才走路回家的时候，想起你煮的食物，想起你每天讲我是厨房里的disaster时，突然想到我们在 LA 吃的快熟面。 那一天我们很晚才到Chris 的家，回到家都累到半死了，又累又饿，什么也不想做，只想赶快冲凉，然后躺下睡觉。


你每次那么累都不会告诉我，自己默默承受，让我发现时你都累到死了，就叫你快点去冲凉，然后我战战兢兢地走到厨房，准备煮面，几天前在koreamart(忘记叫什么名字），刚好那么lucky 可以寄放行李，其实就是被guard 叫住。
记得那时候我还要洗衣服，我小心翼翼地把衣服搬到洗衣机，然后有点害怕地照着instruction s，很多steps and buttons la...damn. 洗衣机开了后，才发觉, 房里还有衣服忘了放进去，然后你也有衣服要pass给我。我就这样跑了一定不少过5 趟，Chris 又在我必经之路坐着写书，我觉得自己这样进进出出就来要烦死他了。 还好／不好的是，洗衣机有pause button, you can pause and open the lid and throw stuffs inside. So I guessed i boiled the water, waiting to throw in noodles, and my last trip is to put in your socks. I was so mad at myself, for going in and out, to a point 就来要自己发脾气了，so frustrated at myself，觉得自己很没用，洗衣服那么简单的事情都做不好, and I realized I cant be THIS careless all the time, and it makes me feels worse when I started to picture if you were there, you would also be very impatient to me, haha, outer expectations.  那个地板走路会发出声音的，我一直很不好意思，很压抑地emo, 很想你赶快出来陪我，break this awkward silence between Chris and I。你冲完凉后我到房间找你，叫你先睡一下，其实我当时超级想拉你出来，但你真的累到要死了，我不忍心你那么辛苦，平时你要操心的东西已经很多了你这个ocd, 就逼自己一个人出回去，继续发自己脾气，继续煮面。哈哈哈。我那时的确是要崩溃了，又累又饿又尴尬又有挫败感。看着那永远都不会滚的水，很想杀人。 过了一下，你自己出来了，and I felt so much better。 有你在陪我吹水，陪我等那个样衰的水，so much difference now. I forgot the timeline, like did you came out before i put the noodles in? 忘了忘了。 总之，本来差点崩溃的我，慢慢平复了情绪, 不给你动任何东西，cause its time for me to cook for you, 屁啦，instant noodles only, 完全就是玩奸臭。 I dont quite remember what happened but we laughed alot, till he asks us what were we giggling about, 然后show 我们外卖的menu.


well, 煮完后我们就站在那里吃，不懂讲到什么弄到我又笑到差点撒尿，不能呼吸。
最扯的是，有人在我喂她吃面的时候不小心喷完出来，daisei. that was EPIC 让我（们）终身难忘，你必须永远记得你出丑的一面哈哈哈哈。To see you be bothered by it SO MUCH just makes it so much funnier, 不能怪我笑到生不如死。李嘉殷（i know it annoys you, just saying), remember what happened when we had 芝麻糊 at SF, 有人假假清高到最后还不是滴到桌子。


third one is your btw.


有一点庆幸你不得空睬我，allowed me some space to recall all these write down whatever is in my mind. I guess it serves a purpose now. 当然，你（我）忙或不忙，我真的没有比较喜欢哪一个，it is a condition, 给我什么，I try make the best out of it, 好与不好我其实没有要求，and seriously 因时而异。(caused you asked me yesterday)


记得，你十二月才看到, 等我飞之前那一刻全部upload上来，一定吓死你，也好给你打发一下时间，反正你必须等我那么久。 Thats all I can do, being so far away from you,  除了陪你起床睡觉，跟你吹水，儿童不宜，盘算以后要怎样，写写东西之外，暂时能够做的就这么多。To be honest Im really not as good as I thought in LDR, for you or myself, I just thought I could do better. But im not complaining, like what I told Angel, so far so good. Remember today, I heard you over the phone. haha. toy.....toy.....babygirl. I love you.