I know I should have hung up when you mentioned about Leo's. I must confess, I was shaken so badly that I almost broke into tears when I asked you those things. It is very embarrassing. It seems like my whole world is collapsing when I doubted you and I was beyond inconsolable. 

Everthing seems contradicting. One day you told me you didnt know how you'll survive if it wasnt me. Today you tell me that everyone has their own choice, and it is up to you to decide whether you wanna settle with someone, and the only legit thing that came into my mind was, if you decided not to settle down with me YET, that's because I am simply not good enough for you, like, no matter how much great time we have now, it means nothing. I am not the "one" yet cause you're doubtful, perhaps after me there are better ones. If that's the reason, like how I thought in the past, I'll leave without hesitation, cause this is just unbearable. I was extremely disappointed when you asked me to reconsider our relationship. It didnt occur to me as you being considerate to let me go and find someone "better", I felt like you let go of me way too easily without a fight, so effortlessly, perhaps being with me is so complicated that you'd rather cut it clean than being trapped with all these unresolved issues. 




你是不是觉得，叫你commit, 会让你喘不过气来。